2017's hard truths, the hustle being real + a lesson in self love
Happy December, friends! I don't think I have ever done a check in here before, but I am feeling super inspired these days after taking one week of rest now that my market season has wrapped up.
This time of year is so hard, dont you agree? Don't get me wrong- I love Christmas and mostly everything that comes with it- but the lead up is a little crazy. I get the sense that I'm not alone on this- anxiety heightens, the hustle to get all your shopping done can be stressful (or if your a small business owner- wrapping up projects and sending orders out!), there is so much pressure to go to all the parties and events- when sometimes all you really want to do is curl up in bed and skip to the 25th.
As a business owner that works almost exclusively with women, it's not uncommon to see mamas, friends and fellow entrepreneurs put everything and everyone but themselves first, especially during this time of year.
So I'm asking this question over on social media channels right now, what are you doing right now for self care? As we come to the end of 2017, are you beginning to create intentions for more wellness for the new year? What about for today?
Wellness has always been the backbone of my company, but I'm creating intentions for taking wellness to a deeper level for 2018 by making some shifts on the business end of #LMH, and within my personal space in order to put self love at top priority. If you have worked with me before, its likely that we have had a conversation in regards to wellness actually distilling down to self love. It's not easy to take care of yourself when you dont really like what you are working with. If you dont show yourself compassion and love, how do you heal?
From my experience, self care does not happen when we need it the most. This year I kept saying "I'll RNR when things calm down"...but that never happened.
In 2017, I co created an online program (Embrace Your WooWoo), launched a new product line, signed on for 20+ markets, carried my heaviest doula client load yet, taught a full line up of Alchemy Series workshops, added Holistic Private Chef to my title and began offering meal preparation services, continued to offer placenta encapsulation as well as seeing clients in clinic. For all of this, I am eternally grateful and humbled to do this work...but this was not easy to do on my own. As I'm sure many entrepreneurs can relate- I pushed myself to the absolute limit to make this happen. I was ignoring signs from my body that I was depleting mentally and physically until finally, I crashed. Early this Fall, I was diagnosed with Hashimoto's disease. I felt like a total failure and a hypocrite. I was "preaching" wellness in all the different forms without taking my own advice. I felt like I failed my body- even though I have a healthy diet, take herbs and supplements daily- how could this happen?
This was and is a huge awakening for me. I have kept this to myself while I initiated this new journey of healing. I wasn't sure if I would share this information with anyone, but since opening up to a few people, I've started to discover that I'm not alone. The more people I talk to, the more other women have come forward to tell me that they are also struggling with thyroid disorders. The fact that so many women are struggling with this and have kept it in silence or allowed it to become a part of their normal has actually inspired me to speak up about it, and do the work to heal in a deeper level. I realize now that this was part of my journey, and a great reminder from my body to take the hints when its asking for rest. This was not easy to do, as I LOVE my "job", but my capacity to do this work became impossible when I felt drained. I'm so thankful for my kick-ass tribe of support, my amazing clients who were extremely compassionate and understanding when I had to end our contracts shorter than planned, and for my health care team who encouraged and helped me form a plan towards healing the Hashimotos. Ill be sharing more information about my care plan using alternative therapies, soon.
Until then sisters, my message that I want to drive home today is to please, be gentle with yourself. You CANNOT pour from an empty vessel. Your body, your mother's body, your grandmother's body has done many miracles making you. It is worthy of your love and respect. For all of you who feel anxious, burnt out, and exhausted. I see you, I feel you. You do NOT need permission to rest.
I know many of you crave more "me" time, more self love, more sacred, better health. Many of you make a New Years Resolution- which is great- but I ask again, what can you do NOW to take steps towards self compassion and self love? No act is too little. A deep breath, a walk in nature, a hot bath, or even just putting yourself to bed 30 minutes earlier than normal. Making a commitment to more self care means making space for your healing- no matter where you are at in your journey. Universal love and world peace begins when we love ourselves first.
Healing the healer is one of my most challenging feats that I have been faced with so far. But, this doesnt just apply to me. I can say with confidence that I have more clarity in my purpose than ever before. I firmly believe that all Women have the power to heal- but I now know first hand that we cannot heal if we are hurting. I completely align with the belief that within me, I can hold space for women to transform- this manifesto is embedded in every product I create with love and is sitting at the forefront of my business for 2018. I cant wait to share how this will unfold for Lauren Mary Holistics in the next few weeks.
Until then, I am leaving the holiday hustle behind and in a complete place of state of cozy until the New Year and wish you all the same!